I'm gonna need about a hundred of these. |
It goes on and on like that.
But ask me what I think about world hunger? Nothing. It doesn't really affect me at all, if it did there wouldn't be anything I could do about it, and I have virtually no power to affect that problem anyway. So I don't think about it, and the fact that other people think about it so much is really odd to me.
This is not to say that I don't care about other people, I just picked that issue cause it was the first one that came into my head. But see, I'm doing it again! As soon as I finished that last paragraph, I immediately started thinking about what people would think if they thought I didn't care about starving kids, and the insane chain reaction that could occur (as unlikely as it is that the Internet would revolt against me, that's what I pictured).
What's worse is I feel like the set of things that I think a lot about is the set of things that everyone else manages to not think about at all. I'm trying to puzzle out what I should do in a relationship, and all I see around me is people just making a decision and moving on, easy peasy. People are having deep, philosophical discussions in the cafeteria (I go to a liberal arts college, don't ask), and all I'm thinking is "Meaning of life seems like it would be subjective happiness. Done. I wonder if the ice cream machine is working?"
I think my brain rationalizes by only devoting thinking time to things that I can conceivably find real answers to. I mean, I could sit under a tree thinking for 20 years and never find a satisfactory answer to the meaning of human existence. But whether or not I want the new Pokemon game? THAT I know how to figure out. I just wish I didn't have to devote all my brainpower to issues like that sometimes.
Cause frankly, I'm pretty sure Pokemon doesn't deserve all my brain power. After all, I'm gonna need at least 2 hours to figure out what I want for breakfast.
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